Tuesday, March 29, 2016

[Day 3] Your Top 5 Pet Peeves



Assuming that anyone who has different opinion or belief is stupid. I don't get it why some people can't respect other people's opinions, whether it is their belief and views toward any matters. Close-mindedly thinking that their opinion is the truest and cannot be turned down. I think it is such a big turn-off.

People who try to make conversations when I am reading and/or listening music/whatever with earphones on. It really gets on my nerves. When someone assumes that when we are reading a book that we are "doing nothing" and therefore can be interrupted, repeatedly. Sometimes all I need is solitude and locked myself from the real life with my favorite books and drowns to a fantasy without worrying about anything else. It is my own way for self-loving, and I need that in life. Some other time, I just don't want to talk with anyone. 

People who finds everything to complain about. Those who blame anything but themselves for their own failure. Well, I do complain about a lot of things too, but I am trying as hard to finish and deal with it as soon as I get my mood back. At least I tried.

People that simply cannot take their trash to the trash bin in places. Littering everywhere or throwing paper trash or whatever it is through your car window. Or throw their empty bottles or cans to everywhere they like (and inside pots) and never felt guilty of it.

Smoking in public area. I really cannot stand smoke, especially cigarettes. And people who do this in public, while they're driving, or talk. And their breath smells like cigarettes. Or they smoke in public and the smoke goes everywhere all over people's face and they keep suck it, though you realized that people around them are closing their nose and gazed at them. Even if their clothes smells like cigarettes. Seriously?

That's my top 5 pet peeves (I wish I could add more) and that's really...really annoying, not only for me but also other people. So, what are your pet peeves?

Monday, March 28, 2016

[Day 2] Stuff I am not good at (and that's ok)


Stuff I am not good at means...basically, my weaknesses? There's sooooo many things I am not good at and sometimes I am feeling like extra-useless and be like "did you forget your promises for self-improvements?!". I'll be like rushing to do this and that and the next day I be like, "catch up later.", or "nah, just, not now.", "it's raining. my blankets are missing me. i knew it." and goes to "what a lovely sunny day, i'd rather go to sleep." and bunch of lines like that. 

To not being lazy is like the hardest game ever, I know it's everyone's major problem, maybe the 97% of the world's population. The rest 3% are just super rare and unique and congratulations you guys are so lucky can I be you!? 

Seeing someone else is crying, I'll cry too without any specific reason in all of sudden. Somebody, could you please explain me why and please tell my eyes to stop pouring salty-waters just by seeing others cry.

Eat a lot and gain weight. I am that type of people who eats like an elephant but my body keeps looking like a peppero or pocky stick. You're welcome. (I want to gain at least 5 kgs more but it's so hard for the sake of healthiness)

Staying clean and tidy, this. This, I TRY SO HARD TBH. I might have cleaned it on a day with all the energy and all might I have left, but the next day it will come back again to a super chaos. A wrecked ship and stuff. Clothes, bread crumbs, water bottle are everywhere. Books and paper are scattering all over the floor. And my mom be yelling, "why no one help me" and "we don't raise you to create a titanic honey"

I am not good at doing just one thing. It's hard to just focus on one thing. Multi-task. I like multitasking and I read on certain sources from the internet that it's not good to multitasking, doing one thing at a time is much much better to keep yourself on track, they said. 

Being on time. I like to endure and this is where most of the problems lie. Time-management is like the most crucial thing in the world and I am trying so hard at this but whyyyy myself why

Of all the things I am not good at, living in the real world is perhaps the most understanding. And really, people, we should stop spending our time wondering why we're not good enough. Everyone have the things they're not good at, and that's okay! ^^

Sunday, March 27, 2016

[Day 1] The Difference Between My Personal and Internet Self


Honestly, I've never thought about it; the difference between my personal and internet self? Wouldn't it be just the same? I am the same person to the person I am on the internet, am I? Thinking that I might be wrong for these thoughts in the first place, I realized that our personal and internet self is likely to have huge differences. Yes, it does. For this post, I decided to take the famous psychology personality test by Carl Jung and Briggs Myers today, again (Click this link if you want to know yours!). The result is I am an INFJ. The INFJs are sometimes mistaken as an extrovert because we appeared so outgoing and enjoying the accompany of other people. But honestly, it's just the opposite, we are true introverts and rather to spend our time alone. I do. Tranquility and solitude enthusiasts. You know, we are daydreamers. I honestly, like super honest, I love being alone and I hate being around people and crowds, although I am noisy and speaks a lot. I don't know, I am not quite sure about that too...maybe I am an extrovert? It is also stated that, "Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills." wHOA. I don't know but this is so true. I basically...I hardly say things verbally but I am feeling like I am quite good or better if I write it down, compose words between spaces for numerous times on daily basis. I always interested in depth, everything with such deep meanings, whatever it is. I love linguistics and various kind of knowledge, maybe that's why I love languages. Languages are like super aesthetic and attractive. Don't you think so?

To distinguish my personal and internet self...I honestly don't know how should I write about it, I, myself, it's hard to distinguish them. But maybe like I said, maybe, sometimes people misunderstood me for being an extrovert. Or I don't know. Some people also didn't understand my personal deeply held principles. And you know things like...how we treat some things differently or my views toward particular things like religion, knowledge, society, commitment, love, education, and life itself. Everyone are free to choose and determine their life principles, so why bother forcing other people to use your principles? I mean, just deal with it. And things like, idk, I also use the sarcasm language a lot too. I am not cool and not smart-headed, but I like learning and enjoy its process. I perhaps seemed like good at languages, but tbh I am not fluent, I am just currently working on it. They said, "Fake it 'till you become it.", so I fake it and perhaps I'll become it. That's my way for self-improvement. I sometimes being insecure on how people might have been disappointed by me, because I am not the person they expected me to be, and things like that. I also really envy those people in such young ages like in their early 11-17s, or way younger than that, they already invented remarkable and amazing inventions. The young researchers. Also, the young hafiz-hafizah (people who memorized the qur'an), mashaallah. And I thought, what have I gained during my 17 years on earth? Why am I wasting my precious time?! etc. I get insecure all the time. We are all the same, and I think most people already experienced it too, so did the elders and etc.

Whatever we are in both real and internet self, just go through it. You need that in your life to move cleanly into your next phase. It's just a phase, a metaphor.

Friday, March 11, 2016

30-Day Blogging Challenge!

Recently I just deleted some of social media one by one, you might realize that there is only my e-mail on contact section, I am no longer using Twitter and Facebook after the moment I realized something-um...you know about, when you upload something on the internet...it stays there forever (I don't know how to say about it but the thoughts of it creeped me out lol), even though I am still using Instagram. I want to get rid of social media slowly and living my life completely, despite the fact that I will always keep e-mail and blog! Well, that's simply because I love writing and stuff. I've always wanted to do a 30-day-challenge-whatsoever since ages but keeping up a challenge for 30 days straight is not an easy thing to do, that's the main reason why it was always delayed. I did the questions challenges a few times, but a 30-days challenge...I've never give it a try. Only hearing its title makes me sweating already.

But, since I spend my time again on blogging earlier (oh I forgot to tell you that it's a week holiday, short-term indeed), I think it would be great if I do something different or challenging... so I thought why don't I give it a go and see if I can make it? So here I am! I am gonna do the 30-day blogging challenge!! It means I am going to post any post related to topic above on a daily basis in 30 days straight. Yay! I'll try as hard as I can to post anything every. single. day. in. 30. days. straight. God! It sounds tiring. But I am pretty sure it is worth the try!! Basically, the 30-day blogging challenge list above is a compilation of the challenges I found on internet and you're likely to find similar things, I just edited some parts. As the [Day 1] post comes up, it means the challenge has just started. Anyway.. anyone can join this challenge so if you're interested in doing this 30-day challenge, please let me know and comment below!

Have a good day, xx

Thursday, March 10, 2016

「空と桜のために。。」

 
これは空のために、そして雲は上記ぶら下がっ
ほとんど毎日。。雨降って地固まる
すべては綺麗と思います
人生は本当に大変だよね
私は考えていた、あなたがそれを思いますか?

私はあなたを知ってだけ、もう幸せよ
あなたは私にたくさんのことを教えてくれました
あなたのおかげで、私の認識を変えました
綺麗の人生でしょう

私たちは同じ空を見てでしょう
でも。。知っているか
もしも、また会えるなら
聞くきたいことがたくさなる
つたえこともいっぱいある

きっといつかは消えてしまうの?
何とか。。もんだから分かってたのに
あなたがいた場合でも、忘れないで私の名だけは
ただそれだけなのに。。。

あ~なかない
心配しないでください
私は幸せでいることを見ることができませんか?
あなたは常にそのような?ばか

人々が「いつかすべての夢がかなえるよ」と言いました
いつか一緒に桜を見に行こう、それはどう?
君はあくまでも約束を守らなければならない
幸せでいてくださいね~


*p.s:
ーListening to this mesmerizing soundtrack of SAO while writing what-so-called-a-nonsense-above is enough to transport me to another side of the world. Don't you think it is somewhat...magical and relaxing? Somehow..it reminds me to Harvest Moon too. Farming life, trees, wind blows, calm, and tranquility. I like how it feels like something daringly quiet. Can you feel it too?
ー私の悪い日本語だから、それに何て言えばいいのか分からない。ごめんなさい!ï¼´_ï¼´

Monday, March 07, 2016

"Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light."


If you realized where the quote above was originated, you're my buddy already. Correct. That's a quote from Interstellar movie. No, I am not going to do a movie review although I never did (never been good on writing reviews), all I did was ended up writing about what my mind could perceive for uncertain purposes and regardless nonsense. So, amigo, now that's nonsense. I perpetually saying that sometimes I don't even know what I am saying so you don't have to take it seriously. Now I am serious. Wholeheartedly if I may say. If you don't know how much do I love astronomy and astrophysics as gigantic (how am I supposed to say that) as the time could bend, or not yet. However I really do have to tell you straightly that I am stupid at physics and exact sciences. But just so you know, everything I write here has begin through deep research and considerable fundamental reasons I was able to take. Just don't rely too much. do people even bother to read?

I have this kind of, you know, puzzling thoughts swirling in my mind about astronomy and its super massive knowledge back then when I was in primary school, but I am glad enough that I, finally, gradually discover new things or at least some questions I have been questioned myself for like ten years ago because I had no one to talk to about it. People would have consider me as a big head who thinks about nonsense things and I'd ended up getting such lines as "It's not our task to think about it." or worse as "stop thinking like you're able to solve things as that". But thanks anyway, now I know why being-mocked-at can be this advantageous for its victims. I mean I was like, dude what was your intention for saying it wasn't our business, like how do you even survive in this world if there is no scientists investigate it or how would you live without knowledge. At least if you don't think you're able to do it, or realized it isn't your field. Just stop complaining.

Actually that wasn't the point.

"We've always defined ourselves by the ability to overcome the impossible. And we count these moments. These moments when we dare to aim higher, to break barriers, to reach for the stars, to make the unknown known. We count these moments as our proudest achievements. But we lost all that. Or perhaps we've just forgotten that we are still pioneers. And we've barely begun. And that our greatest accomplishments cannot be behind us, because our destiny lies above us." -Cooper

Astronomy has taken me away to such different perspectives, nope I wasn't taken for such time and dimensional travel. Nope, dude. Even though it sounds amaazingg I am spinning out of nothingness and scattering stars!! Astronomy will always become one of the reason why I look upon Islam differently now. You might be saying, there's no relation between this and that or it's just a coincidence and a bunch of blah blah, but I had to justify that it wasn't a coincidence and there lies guidance. It really does embrace the horizon. Wasn't the horizon you'd find in black holes though. We'd talk about it soon since it has huge relation with the line I quoted. And by that soon I mean a real soon like soon but not today (I forgot what I want to write isn't it annoying). Well, let's just talk about the poem first. The quote was derived from a poem by Dylan Thomas (1914-1953), let's take a moment to appreciate. The poem's meaning is life affirming. It urges us to live life to the fullest and to never surrender. For me, it is one of the most powerful poems ever written, that we should not give up and surrender. That somehow we have to discover what makes us happy the most, to pursue any endeavor we chose.  Finding a purpose, whether it be to live each day to the fullest or to be the best person possible or creating something that makes our life more joyful and meaningful. 


“I don’t know whether the universe, with its countless galaxies, stars and planets, has a deeper meaning or not, but at the very least, it is clear that we humans who live on this earth face the task of making a happy life for ourselves. Therefore, it is important to discover what will bring about the greatest degree of happiness.” - Dalai Lama

Wednesday, March 02, 2016

走りつづけるだけさ!


明日もし、上手くいかなくったって
立ち止まらない
欲しいのは 次のマイセルフ
誰かにもし、これ以上は無駄って
ライン引かれたって
ノーサンキュー!! 越えていくから

Even if things don’t go well tomorrow,
I won’t ever stand still;
What I desire is my next “self”!
If someone were to draw the line,
Saying that it’s impossible to go any further,
I’d say, “No, thank you!!” ’cause I’m gonna go beyond!


「SPYAIR アイム・ア・ビリーバー」

あの。。今は午前中に2時10分です。数時間で、中間試験があります。私は物理学からの脱出しています。もう知りませんね、難しい。たいへんですね T_T 私は誇張しているだけ。そのことわないですよね。私はむしろ週間の言語の束を勉強したいと思うだろう。まあ、私はそれを強調しておりません。私の心は何かを考えています、到達しにくいもの。「なにが楽しいんだ?」と人は言うけれど。それは俺にもわからない。走りつづけるだけさ。とにかく、この歌は私を幸せにします。それはだから...私の夢に私を思い出させます。がんばりましょう!

You know what. It is 2.10 am in the morning and there will be mid-term exam just in a few hours. I am kind of...escaping from Physics because I can no longer take the equations anymore. I was exaggerating, I am just not into it. I'd rather studying bunch of languages for weeks. Well, I am not really stressing about it, but my mind is running off somewhere to a dream that is kinda hard to reach. People keep asking me "What's so fun about it?" I don't really understand about it too... But I think I'll just keep on running. Anyway, this song makes me happy, because it reminds me to my dreams. Let's do our best! 

Don't let life randomly kick you into the adult you don't want to become~^^