Childhood Romance

He told me I was Venus.

I don't understand what he meant, he said he just like that name. So, I said yeah and called him 'astronaut', with terms and condition. In my definition, it is supposed to be a person who would never step his feet on Venus unless he determines to burn in flames. He never did understand the literal meaning.

8.00 a.m is when he told me he likes my laugh; the way my big front baby teeth appeared as I open my jaw, exhales the air out. I know that was gross and he was weird to adore that. I asked him why and he said "It's cute. Your dimples." I frowned and told him that I only have one. He giggled sheepishly, "One in your left cheek, the other one is only visible to me." I rolled my eyes in disgust.

At February 14th, he brought me white roses, bear, and chocolates. My friends were cheering and my teachers were asked me to accept it. But, I cried and threw him rocks, ended up spending my whole day in the principal's room (I wish I had the pic). I never liked surprises ever since. It wasn't because I hate him or anything, but it was absolutely ridiculous. We were only 7. What did he expect!?

The roses were nowhere to be found. The chocolates were shared to the whole class instead (they were very happy tho!). And I kept the teddy bear, as I have promised his mom to at least keep that. (note: I gave the plushie away for charity for Mt. Merapi Explosion in 2005, thanks, it was finally useful)

In grade 4, an incident happened. He was transferred to another school and I never knew where he is until now. He never bids me a goodbye or anything, not even a chance for me to clarify things. I was mute the whole day, knowing that he was going to leave me miles away is pretty exhilarating and somewhat intoxicating.

I realized things only after his leaving. He was always there in the canteen, struggling to use his chopsticks. His face would turn red as he gave up and use his hands to eat. He would be there in the library at my lonely times, bringing my favorite orange juice in a carton box. He would sit beside me, asking me to read his favorite Winnie-The-Pooh Bedtime Stories because he still doesn't know how to read. I urged him to learn how to read but he ignored, saying "It sounds better if you are the one who reads it for me." I rolled my eyes again, but he was too nice for bringing me orange juice, so I nodded instead.

It has been 10 years and I wish I could tell him what has always been on my mind. I was only his Pluto. In the end, I was abandoned and is no longer considered to be in his solar system. He thought I never liked him the way he does. Little did he know, 

he was wrong too.

For I also love him dearly, 

as a friend.

DISCLAIMER: It's NOT referring to someone or ANYONE. :)

#WKWKKWKWKWKW #fictionfictionfiction #someeventsarereal #mychildhoodisajoke #donttakeitseriouslyplzz #creativewritingpurposeonly

공감

"싫은 일은 하지 마라
미운 사람은 만나지 마라
가기 싫은 자리는 가지 마라
먹지 싫은 건 먹지 마라

살아보니 인생은 짧더라
경우에 어긋나지 않는다면
너 자신에게 먼저 집중하고 살아라"

-@o_ek_1101

진짜. 완전. 정말. 취고!! ㅠㅠ

First IELTS Test Experience

Yeah, I kinda screwed up the exam.

I got the result yesterday and wasn't really satisfied with my overall band score that I got. So faaaar away from my target. But alhamdulillah, thanks for the native ma'am who kindly gave me a pretty decent band. Lots of love for you ma'am. If not, I might have got even worse. But the most important thing, it still passed the minimum requirement though. :( 

First, I would like to say that the parts in IELTS which I feared the most are the reading and speaking section. Okay. You know, the reading part in IELTS is hella... hell scarryyy. They have different kinds of question apart from what you will find in TOEFL. There would only be a few multiple choice questions and the rest are random types of question which you had to find by yourself in your head. Whatever. You wouldn't find the answer anywhere. Uh well yea though some types of questions have, but it still hell-o-my-god-so-difficult-i-dont-want-to-do-it-again. Every single time I did the trial or mock test, when it comes to Reading section I always thought, "Yea, you're my enemy now Reading section.". It makes my head super dizzy for not knowing what should I write there. I was never confident in reading section. Never.

Meanwhile, I took the speaking test on a different day with the LWR test which was held on Saturday. The funny thing is I thought I would get like 4,5 or 3 in my speaking test that I panicked and couldn't even forgive myself. Let alone the high-level words I've memorised to say all week or the phrases and structures that could help me get 7 or 8, I even stumbled upon the words and sounded like a squeaky rat :((( My... I just don't know how to explain how bad my performance was. I might have screwed what I've prepared but it turns out my speaking band is one of the highest which slightly boost my overall band score. I don't know how?? Alhamdulillah. Same goes with the reading section: those which I feared the most, scored the most. Uhh-mazing.

The listening and writing section, meanwhile, the ones that I prepared more than those two little rats got lower band scores. I thought I was doing okay in listening, yeah I could hear everything almost perfectly, but I have to admit that some questions on the back pages are pretty tricky. It was difficult. The section that actually could get the highest band, I got the lowest:(

The writing section!!! I was confident with my writing, moreover, the topic is about astronomy and space which I am sure I have a lot of fancy vocabularies to use. It was about space travel and research something (which is my thing!), errr idk what I can recall is we have to elaborate our opinions about future space travel in International Space Station something and the impact of future developments in technology. 

I was very very confident. I spent most of the time correcting my writing style and learned how to produce a good academic essay. Academic essays are different and super hella absolutely complicated. I don't understand. I have always been so motivated when it comes to writing. But yeah, the band score wasn't that good either. Perhaps I was just being cocky. Since then, I realised I have a lot of flaws here and there to improve. Ijebutteo yeolsimhi hakesseubnidaaaa!!!1! Hahaha sorry. This one will always be my favourite, even though I got higher band than I used to get in mock tests, it still...so-so. I'll try harder next time:)

I admitted that I didn't prepare for the test well enough, I studied like crazy for only like 1-2 weeks even though I actually had like 3 months before the exam. Procrastination. Always. I just thought I have prepared just enough but I think it's just in my head. The thing that I learned is... to stop procrastinate and value your time, it worth more than anything else. Anndddd, don't. underestimate. any. section. Love them equally. (Aw!) Like in my case, I got higher band scores in the section that I feared the most, meanwhile, the sections that I prepared so much than the others (that I am confident at) got lower band scores instead. Good luck and good work!! 

May the odds be ever in your favour. 

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TOPIK 52휘 RESULT!!

안녕하세요 여러분들♡ 잘 지냈죠? 여기 왔어서 감사합니다!!

HEHEHEHEHE. So I did TOPIK Exam 52휘 on April 26th 2017 and the result is out today!! Yayyy~~~ For your information, TOPIK 토핔 stands for Test of Proficiency in Korean/한국어능력시험, it's like TOEFL/IELTS/DELF/DAF/etc but this one is to test your Korean language skill. Well, I started learning Korean in October '16 after I decided not to take JLPT (Japanese Language Proficiency Test) and self-taught myself Korean after going through bunch of considerations. But for sure, I am glad that I did!

I would say that  I am pretty disappointed that I wasted my time and felt like I haven't studied enough for the test. Korean is though, man. I should've put more efforts. Well, sometimes I studied Korean during classes or while the others are studying for UN/SBMPTN I studied Korean instead, hehe I know I am bad. HAHAHA. And the fact that I decided to take Social studies for SBMPTN while I came from Science major feels like hell just now lol. I just don't know whether it's a right decision or am I throwing myself to hell. Naudzubillah. Lol what am I even doing for myself. I am sorry myself:'( Nevertheless, I didn't regret my decision.

Well... the test itself is 3 days after National Exam (UN). My health was dropped the day after that I only had 2 days left to prepare for the exam. GEEZZZ. I know, it's crazy but I have priorities that couldn't be neglected.  I HAVEN'T EVEN FINISH THE BOOK THAT I BOUGHT. MAN. Whatevs. So I locked myself in my room and studied like crazy in 2 days. Eh, don't get me wrong, I have studied the grammars and vocabs before and I only did previous test exams in those days. Tips for those who are studying languages: even if you feel like you can't study in some period of time, make sure to surround yourself with the language. As for me, I still managed to read 네이버 웹툰 (Naver Webtoon), random Korean apps, speak with natives, and watch Kdrama/shows/vlogs during my free time. Lol, it's funny that I said I didn't have time but I still managed to watch Korean dramas. 죄송합니다 ㅋㅋㅋ 나 나쁜사람이야 ^^;;;

There are two types of exam that you can choose, TOPIK I Beginner  (Level 1-2) and TOPIK II Intermediate to Advanced (Level 3-6). There is no speaking in both test, the differences are in writing and of course the difficulty level. Oh and also the prices, in Indonesia, the TOPIK I is Rp 150.000,00 and TOPIK II is Rp 250.000,00.

I enrolled for TOPIK I since I still am a beginner and it's my first time to sit for the exam. I would like to know how the exam is like and to test how far I've gone in Korean. The thing is, I don't even get it why the beginner level's passages felt like crap @%#-$(*°¢&€√|{£!!!-____- I ran out of time!! I had ten questions left (with long passages each:)))) ) in the last ten minutes. So what I did was buletin indah yang penting gercep asal jawab bodo amat dah(?), lol I meant randomly chose the answers since I don't even understand what that is. I was pretty slow or enjoying the passages too much, I am not sure which one ㅋㅋㅋ

And here's the result...!

I AM VERY GRATEFUL. Not that bad thooo. At least I tried :D

If you are going to try the exam, you can check their websites >> topik.go.kr

The exam is on April but the registration starts 3 months before, in January, and is only last for A WEEK it means you have to gercep alias fast and furious alias 빨리빨리. In Indonesia, it usually held twice in April and October. So, if you are going to apply for the exam soon make sure to check the dates!!

If you have any questions, feel free to ask me. 질문 있으면 언제든지 물어보세요^^

Best of luck, 화이팅!

The Beauty in Diversity

Yesterday I had a very interesting conversation with a friend of mine. We started from a multicultural group chat containing French, Iranian, Koreans, Turkish, Chinese, and me, Indonesian, who speak absolutely random and nonsense (but fun!). He is younger than me, quite the same age as my brother  but I would say that he has a knowledge of more than teenagers here. So we replied to our snapgrams, and started to talk about languages. At first I was pretty shocked, because he explained to me very briefly about his native language. About how Persian is different with Arabic or the similarity of their old characters with Chinese characters. A lot of new things that I discovered (or am I just dumb I don't know) about Middle East countries etc, especially his. This is due to the fact that I very unlikely to get such information in my country. Too much... hoax. I don't know which is which anymore.

Well, let me say.. I realized how much the difference of how people from all over the world perceive the world. Complicated. Don't know how to explain, man, why English why!! But one thing that I know for sure is that we acknowledge quite similar thing, but turns out... I didn't understand pretty well. There is some abcd that I couldn't get, I mean...the things that might be usual to talk about there, is pretty unusual to talk about here. We know what we're talking about, we're on the same direction, but there is something like missing puzzles...because we live in a different countries, brought by different perspectives. But still beautiful. I don't know if it's just me, but I rarely have such conversation with locals. Things like the Middle Eastern wars, Sunni Shia, or Islam itself.

I don't know how it happened, but we ended up talking about deeper Islam. What do you mean? I don't know, just don't ask, I am confused too-_- To be honest, it was pretty awkward when we discovered ourselves being Sunni and Shia. I acknowledge that the rumours and news that spreaded in my country is quite...yea. DON'T GET ME WRONG. At first I was afraid that I might say something that would trigger "misunderstanding" between us, for I myself don't quite understand.  In my country, we rarely assume ourselves as some certain group. Though we know that some countries are majority of bla bla-muslim. We just refer ourselves as Muslim. And I absolutely have no problem about that as long as we could be tolerant to each other and prevent unintentionally conflicts.

I was afraid, I don't want to break a friendship just because a small misunderstanding. He calmed me by saying, "We all are muslim *cute emojis* take this one it's better. I told you this bcz it can make enmity" and other things that unsuitable to be posted along (because it might hurt others).

What I want you to realize is not the conversation that we had or else. But this conversation got me reflected upon the things that happened in my beloved country recently, the country of Bhinneka Tunggal Ika, Indonesia. I love differences and learn from various perspectives, it taught me to be tolerant and understand other people better. I like it the most, when I listen to people's stories about how they perceive the world or simply about how they live their life. It's not that I want to justify or forcing certain perspective or believes; I just love the beauty of tolerance in diversity. 

The heaven and the hell? It's our personal matters and the Lord's absolute right. We have no right to decide or accuse ones who deserve to enter the heaven or hell.  If we can't change the world all at once or attain world peace, at least, let's be good to each other in society as a human being.

Why do we have to war? If we can live together in peace...

May peace be upon you. Assalamu'alaikum~

Friday Reminder: Finding Inner Peace

Assalamu'alaikum!! (May peace be upon you) اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُم

Ramadhan is coming very near already. Oh, didn't you see that coming? So these days, recently, I felt like my iman (faith) has been decreasing gradually, astaghfirullah, and I kinda missing the peace during my prayers. Have you ever felt like... you just don't feel it? I felt bothered and blamed myself a lot about it that I tried various ways but the 'peace' never comes back. Perhaps it's because the sins I realized or not realized I've commited in the past. Or it might be because my mind had been occupied with everything wordly that I forget the akhirah. But today I would like to share a few things that probably could help you finding the "peace" back, or at least, reminding you(and me too) of Islam, Qur'an, anything.

I would like to recommend you an app, it's Nouman Ali Khan podcasts  which you can download it from App Store. It contains of da'wah lectures of Mr Nouman Ali Khan that you can actually access it from Bayinnah Tv or FreeQuranEducation in Youtube. It's very good especially if you would like to save your internet data (because if you don't, it's hours lectures in Youtube man). You don't have to start with an hour lectures, just begin with short 5-10 minutes lectures, but do it constantly in the morning or in the evening so you'll get used to it. Just as you like. As for me, I am trying to listen at least one lecture everyday to keep myself reminded. Mashaallah may He makes us among the people He loves.

Learn Tajwid. Download any apps or buy any books that could help you understand Al Qur'an better. Be an educated muslim! Educate and surround yourself.. start reading Sirah Nabawiyah and take reflections upon it.

Memorize at least one surah; read the tafsir, understand the tajwid, listen to lectures about it, and act upon it. Just one surah, but focus, and make sure to dig deep down inshaAllah it would give a good impact in your life. Focus on one thing and reflect, open more doors. The more you recite, the more you understand.

Help people. Good causes are good causes, people wouldn't judge your religion or where'd you come from. If possible, be a part of good cause in non-muslim event (volunteers, etc), not only among Islam communities. Be a better human being, better muslim. Be an example of what true Islam is. Let's put aside all those bad news about muslims these days, rather than debating the whole day (and keeps debating anyway) let's just put our focus on ourselves instead. We can't change people to what we want them to be except Allah is willing to give His blessings and hidayah. All we have to do is to pray, guide, and remind them. I am not saying that we have to give up, but we have to understand whether it's our personal lives or in society. Inshaallah there is a way.

Fix our intention only for Allah. This one is very hard, I admit. When you're going to give, expect only for Allah. If we are doing good for others, don't say that you help them, we're actually helping ourselves. There is nothing to big for Allah to give. It's easy for us, because Allah made it easy for us. Be faithful and keep reminding each other for we are imperfect human beings.

Guys, Allah doesn't need us. He is independent and qiyamuhu binafsihi, he doesn't need our struggles or anything. It's us who need Him.

It's a reminder for me too,  Ramadhan is near and I wish we could prepare ourselves before its coming. May Allah Azza wa'Jalla makes us of those who are committed to our faith throughout our lives. May Allah overlook our shortcomings and not make us among the dhaalim. And may He protects us forever. Aamiin..


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List of lectures I recommend in Nouman Ali Khan podcast:
1. Have Genuine Love to the Book of Allah
2. How We Lose Our Iman
3. You're the Best For People
4. Purify your Faith
5. Amazed by The Qur'an series
Well, I have to say, everything!!! 

Portia, to the Knight.

[Sunday, 17th November 1986. 11:34 pm. Location: unidentified, yet]

I built a wall, a fortress so high, that keeps me a prisoner of my own mind. I came back to the day where I've been told all the pretty things you think I need to hear. You're right, they wind themselves around my ears and brittle bones; creating a new flesh of me. But you're wrong too, it didn't affect me the way you thought. Had you ever been straightforward, I would not have stepped any further.

We are two muted gray figures of a silhouette, stopped between two panels of lights. To the fingers dancing past 2 a.m. I told you I wasn't into it I was a denial, but you dragged me along until I drowned in a sea of lures. I was spellbounded! Captivated! Enchanted!

You told me once, "Amor vincit omnia", and the time stopped for a while.

Someone should have reminded me, not to fall in love or fall in fools (I am not quite sure); for I have, and wounded my knee into benevolent promises. I struggled to orbit, freaking lost my axis.

After all that happened, I decided to build the walls even higher than I could ever imagine. I regret the things I have said upon the blisters. Sometimes I talk to myself about the things I wish I could take back for I no longer have a chance to transmit the signals anymore. Now that it's gone, I just realised how much I need them.

Don't ask me to write a poem anymore. Believe me when I said all those things, I meant it. It's not that I hate the things that happened, but I hate myself for doing what I shouldn't. I blamed myself, I used to..

But then I remember why I started, and I know why it never worked out with anyone else.

The shadow behind your cape,
Portia.

Post-Graduation Reflection

Heheheheeee I am so excited. Oh finally, the day that I have always dreaming of since the first time I stepped in the yellow gate (which turned green eventually). Yeah, since the very first day. Pretty ironic I know. The thing is... I have always wanted to just get out of this place as soon as possible hehe but wouldn't I be such an ungrateful human-being? I used to think that choosing this school was the second worst decision I've ever made in my life (sometimes I still do) but Allah showed me another way to make my life full of meanings. Mercy to Allah for His blessing that the days I spent my 3 years in high school filled with a lot of experiences, lessons, and a lot of skipped class (and research's lab activities!). The only thing that keeps me doing what I love. Alhamdulillah....

Oh. Haven't I told you? I graduated today!! YAY. I've never been this happy before. Errr..nope, I did too at the last graduation. Ehehee. Sorry not sorry.

Talking about graduation makes me think about the old days I had spent my life in private school, how the teachers and school systems are so well-managed. The relationship between students-teachers-parents are glued and they cooperate to improve each individual's developments. Well, not to mention that it's pretty costly, but it does worth it. I am very much disappointed with the public school's schooling system, I just... really don't get the idea. In private school, I've always learned that teachers are our family who push us to learn about new things and develop curiosity. The first time I went to public school, I never knew, I was pretty shocked that the relationship between students and teachers (let alone the parents) is pretty...er how do I say it...unnatural and rather enmity? If I ever had the opportunity to change anything in my life, I would like to finish my 12 years of study in a private school. Despite all the circumstances, I won't regret the decision.

I remember myself doing my first-ever graduation speech as a representative of one of the private school's branch in front of Mr Amien Rais, Indonesian political who owned the institution, even though my national exam was among the lowest. Going down the stage, Mr Amien Rais greeted me and told me that my speech was amazing. As an elementary school student who values everything, I get so hyped by it, even though I know it doesn't have a meaning but it does affect me during the entire year. It has always been my problem. I never liked studying for grades but I love and enjoy learning that I could stayed up all night to read my favorite books. Well it's my fault though, dumping things away that I think isn't that important is one of my hobby. Just kidding! Grades are important hahaha I am just that ignorant.

Thinking about the past today, I realised how much I have developed and changed. Both good and bad. I could feel the dynamics in my way of thinking and life's principles. Well, things are though and there's a few things I regret that I did. But so what? There always comes a lesson in every hardships. At least, now I have graduated... I am not that bright of a student no matter how hard I tried, I could never make it as a center of my focus, but I know for sure that the other things going around unnoticed are pretty much my thing. I cannot wait for the opportunities ahead, I wish it will be another good decision. See you.

화이팅!

요즘에 우리 부모님이 진짜 바빠서 시간이 없고 만나 힘들고 같이 먹어 어려워요. 샌각해보다 세상이 너무 어렵네요. 일찍 아침부터 밤까지 일이 많이 있어요. 그런데 이렇게 살고있는 것이 다행이다. 하지만 이 세상엔 매우 다양한 종류의 가족이 존재해요. 엄마와 아빠가 나의 꿈을 항상 지지해요. 어떻게 설명해야 할지 모르겠어요. 하지만 한가지는 확실해요... 나는 매우 감사하고 후련해요.

아~ 어쨌든, 월요일에 전국 시험 있으니까 열심히 공부해야지! 난 그렇게 뚝뚝하지 않지만 열심히 할게용. 난 너를 위해 기도할 것이고 니가 모든 것에 최선을 다하길 바랄것이다.

우리 친구들 화이팅!! 할 수 있어요^^ ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

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안녕하세요 여러분. 잠이 안 왔어서 블로그를 쓸 것같아요 지금~ 에후... 이런, 왜 안 됐을까요. 가끔 난 모든 것이 어떻게 돌아가고 있는지 모르겠다는 생각에 젖어들어요. 나도 꽤 괜찮다고 생각했다. 그것은 정말 위험하지만, 잘 처리했어. 네가 일찍 오다니 다행이다. 넌 절대 변하지 않았어 다행이다. 난 니가 정말 변했다고 생각했었는데요. 

하나도 안 변하고 예전 그대로군요. 나는 완전 든든하죠? 아까는 행복이라고 했고요. - 아까는 행복이라고... 기분이 되게 좋아서 진짜 기뻤어요. 우리가 다시 만날 수 있을지 궁금해요. 아직도 날 기억하겠니? 아니, 아니, 잠시만, 내가 뭘 생각하고 있는거지? 근대, 시간을 내 주셔서 고마워요. 내가 만약에 조금이라도 잘못했다면 미안해요. 또 만날수 있다면 좋겠어요.

진심으로,

유치원 친구 (2004.06.19).

The things that fall

Knock knock;

Once upon a time, a peaceful day bright blue skies

A poem lovely as a tree, clinging the warmth upon the ties

Shivering birds beneath the eaves, leaps laughing the quite hill

2 a.m of sleepless nights, dance beneath the stars

I discovered constellations I have yet to find

"...as the plant that never blooms, but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers."

Things that fall: petals, snowflakes, sparks, shadows

Tick tock;

The blue gone grey, past the glow of your lamp

Day is cold, dark, and dreary; it rains and the wind is never weary

Rain falls a few drops, sliding down your window

To the wet soil it sinks in, let the thunder overtakes

Burst out in a heavy storm, against the glass

The moon split in half and the stars crumbled

"I'm just bones and questions and leave me for something solid."

Things that fall: stars, eyelids, teardrops, snowflakes

Stop stop;

Dark days have been told, stumbling upon a holy clock

Behind the clouds is the sun still shining

The time has come, for I built the walls around

Though it carved, into my veins

I draw the line of determination of desperation

"...straightforwardly, without complexities or pride."

Poems are made by fools like me, in some days that must be dark and dreary

And all the things that fall: are the things that fall towards gravity, 

and I.


[15.03.17, 4.11 p.m]

Do you not understand?

I am drained. Mentally.
No one would understand the struggle and the pain I have kept all alone. I just want to get out of this place as soon as possible. You can play the victim as you like. But you would never get the chance to convince me. I am tired but I keep the social norm. I could get real deep but inauthenticity is never tolerable. It's perfectly imperfectly sound and reasonable. For every principal that I have, there's a reason behind it. People just aren't ready or their standards are just way too low. Too shallow. Do you not understand? Is it too hard for you to discover? Or are you just too stupid to realize? That's a shame, buddy. You'd better keep yourself shut. Sorry, but you are very welcome to leave.

"Hey Boo," she said

August 1989

The wind blew in a circular motion forming an acceleration of a thin whistle. Just in the right speed. The clouds stayed in its place, always out of my reach. The sun photons always consistent emitted its ray out of the space from day to day. Reaching the small holes of the clouds through the white-cast of enchanting sparks. The moon, on its turn to play hide and seek, it exists but unseen. The stars too, I mean the other star farther than the sun, they were hiding between invisible-cloak like skies.

"Hey Boo," She said, stretching her hand out of her pocket and took out an opened can of tuna. Two tuna to be precise, each for two cats standing before her. The cats made their way to the can and licked the flesh hesitantly. One lick, two licks... three licks. Until they are sure enough it doesn't contain anything that would have killed them in seconds. 

"Eat well, Boo,"  Their small ears reached the ground, itchy maybe? They ate it all in less that two minutes, the young girl chuckled, "I should have brought you two cans, eh, or three? But that's enough for today my friends, I'll bring you more tomorrow." she caressed their soft furs, a combination of a brown, white, and black dotted whatever pattern. She played with them a few minutes before she stood up and left. The cats were following her, although she told them to stop. Well, they did stop, but followed her again, rubbed their puffy cheeks on each of her legs. Begging and acting cute, don't want her to leave the place. Just like me.

I was observing her since the 5th day, two weeks after I caught her glance. I am scary, no, I am just... observing. I still remember how she looked that day, looking innocent and always put the smile on her face. A smile that anyone would die for, well at least for me. She always looks happy, wherever she is, around her friends or even with the cats. I don't think she ever realized that. I wonder if she ever been sad, though.

She looks as if she has all the angels cheering up for her when time gets rough or things get harsh. My life too, but she is 93% percent of stardust, heaven-made human. Earth is too tough for her. Even being a guy like me, the earth is still too tough. I don't even think she is made for this world, perhaps she was brought to a wrong place?

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Oh anyway, 'the story series' POV always changed from time to time, that's why you might be confused. Whose POV? Your guess. Have fun figuring out which:))) lol

De ce terrible paysage, tel que jamais mortel n'en vit...

"Quand on veut une chose, tout l'Univers conspire à nous permettre de réaliser notre rêve." -Paulo Coelho

Sometimes I am not even sure if I have chosen the right path, nor do I know if I have made a wrong decision or if it's just because I am worried about everything...basically presque tout. Just looking at my timelines, all those possibilities, and chances ahead make me dread the future so much. I always feel like I have done nothing sufficient enough. I know what I want in life and how to achieve it. I have my faith and I am so well aware that every single thing in life happens in the right time and the right place. But insecurity never leave its place and haunts me in the dark to find its light. I don't want to look back and regretting what I have done today, yet I still am doing nothing ever good enough. Nevermind, I shall study though...

Shields

I stood amid the roar; upon the flames
Opened the door in answer to a knock
Souls went deep in visions of lone acre enchantments
I found you by the eyes within the approaching dark
The brains denied, nul besoin de paroles
I stepped aside but there is nowhere to go
Nonetheless I have found my home
I am no coming back
Et ex mente tota; semper fidelis.

[1.03.2017 - f.a]

Unboxing Packages !!

"And [remember] when your Lord proclaimed, 'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny, indeed, My punishment is severe.' "

-Quran Ibrahim:7

Last month, I was super duper happy because a lot of packages came in the mail!! (It was a very good thing to begin new year, 2017 is my year kkk) Well, too bad I didn't take a picture because I was so hyped about it and didn't even think to make it as a blog post, well no one cares though. What I did everyday was waiting for my packages to come. I woke up thinking about where my packages are now, eating thinking about my babies flying in the aircraft on their way to their momma here. You know, I always love the feeling of receiving mails and stuffs since I have been snailmaling and sent postcards. Like you know.. that happy unexplainable feeling when you open the package and wondering what's inside (though you knew anyway), that is the best feeling ever. I think I am going to start snailmailing again after all these hectic days of exam pass. (Well I was running out of money because hella this hobby requires so much money, time, and creativity) Well, exams. This too shall pass. Screw you:(

I ordered a few stuffs (including 7 books and etc!!) and received a gift from Zenius. Alhamdulillah, I am one of the lucky Zenius user I guess. So many blessings.  Nonetheless, the book from Zenius is supeeer aesthetic and it really does satisfy my needs and thirst for astronomy. Thank you so muchhhh Zenius! Oh... and I am loving the tutor signsss, I sticked it on the wall to keep me reminded lol. Zenius tutors are the best teachers I've ever known. I will never forget them forever in my life. Oh so cliché but nevermind, I mean it. (Please refer to this blog post if you haven't read the article, here)

truth be told, everyone. we are all doomed.

"May the force will always be with you" - Love, Wilo

"Dare to question everything! And the light will shine upon you... Enjoy the ride ♥" - Sabda

"Keep exploring the world. Remember, not all who wander are lost. May you have a great journey." = Fanny Rofalina

"Thank you for believing in us!!" - Zenius  (Thank you for errrrthing!!)

Now, tell me how can I unlove Zenius if they had given me so much?

I also ordered a book from South Korea (ofc south not north u stupid) since the beginning of January too. However, I didn't get any notification after two weeks or so nor didn't get a hint of whether my books will be shipped or it gets lost somewhere. Finally I got a notification about the shipping process after waiting for a few weeks, meh. Well, at least it got here safely now! I've only read 1/3 part of the book so far since I am so lazy and so on, but this book shall finish before April. Why? Ya because why not lol kbye.

thank you Ahimsa Wardah! I love dinosaurs♥

열심히 공부해요!

I didn't manage to take and post every picture, but yeah, I think I am just going to post pictures of books. Lololol. Oh and mashaallah I almost forgotten... alhamdulillah, I would like to express my gratitude for the gifts and surprise on my birthday last year ^3^ I couldn't ask for anything better than your company and support throughout the year! Thank you for everyone who always be there for me, make me laugh from day to night, create wonderful moments, and teach me the meaning of this world, about our existence and purpose. Oh, and you. Thanks to you too, ehehe I mean all of you, and you though. Your existence is enough as a blessing for me. (Aw I am so sweet lmao) May Allah blesses you guys with happiness and success in the dunya and the hereafter. Mashaallah how ungrateful I have been these days... astaghfirullah.

"Being envious and jealous of others will rot your heart, 
ask Allah to increase His blessings upon them and you'll see your heart blossoms." - Saad Taslem

The Tale

pride and prejudice

And maybe it was more than that. Maybe it was actually an instant agreement between two young unspoken minds demanded to be understood by each other without ever saying it straightly. Selfish? I don't think so. "I have so much that I want to say to you, but I just don't know how to form it into words." Peter broke the silence between them.

I love you as certain dark things 

are to be loved, 

in secret, 

between the shadow and the soul.

Ursula gritted her teeth, fidgeting as she looked away, "Then, I don't have the right to ask you since it would cross our boundaries." Well, sometimes I hope you can just say whatever you want to say. The ears are not only to hear what we want to hear, sometimes it has to hear the things we don't want to hear. Just because we didn't say certain things, doesn't mean you we don't feel them.

Thinking of it as a nonchalant act but it was way harder to know when and how it began. Even though both of them knew it never began. Worries dwell, the hearts swell. The old fellows parted away from each other amicably as their souls intertwined in despair.

Disclaimer: this is a work of fiction.

Déjà vu

There were times 

when everything felt so unsure 

and the other time it felt so certain

I didn't know 

how everything felt close 

yet distant– 

whether it was a real beginning 

or more as though remembering 

some sort of Déjà vu

I believed and didn't believe

because not all paths join

We know too well
that a situation

could change one's mind

However, 

every whisper 

brings me closer 

to a long list 

of impossible conclusions

Sometimes I thought
as if I have given so much
to things that
weren't worth 

my time, 

but,

who am I to blame?

1980s poems

It has been more than a month since the very first conversation I had with the young girl I met, if you remember, that girl whom her hobby is staring at the sky and said that it was pitch black. The sky is pitch black, she said. I know, neither did I understand what she was saying.

Today I met her again, this time she wasn't looking at the sky but instead, papers. Well, book. Book consists of papers right? It was a copy of classic poems compilation in 1980s era she was holding tightly with her little pale hands. She really is a weird being, perhaps that's why nobody could keep up with her, I insist.

She put her book down and glanced at me. She waved, I startled. "Me?" there was no sound coming out of my mouth anyway, it was just me talking to myself.

"How are you, old friend?" She smiles the brightest smile I have ever seen in my whole life. But hey anyway, did she just say that we are friends?

Your smile stakes a claim

on my past.

I laugh and talk small

as if the tunnels

through our hearts

had never been connected,

as if I had no claim to stake

on any part of you.

"Grand. And you, friend?"

"I was kidding." I let out a chuckle. Nodding, telling her I knew what she means so that she doesn't have to worry about it. She laughed.

"Poems?" She nodded. "Isn't it boring?"

"It is," she paused as she flipped through the pages, "...for those who doesn't understand the meaning."

Silence filled the void between us. She didn't say anything, nor did I. "I don't know your name. I am Glove."

"I don't have a name. But you can call me Fox."

"So, both of us made a name of 'Foxglove'..."

"Poisonous?"

"I guess we are." I never understand her words.


Disclaimer: this is a work of fiction.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me, 

Black as the pit from pole to pole, 

I thank whatever gods may be 

For my unconquerable soul. 

In the fell clutch of circumstance 

I have not winced nor cried aloud. 

Under the bludgeonings of chance 

My head is bloody, but unbowed. 

Beyond this place of wrath and tears 

Looms but the Horror of the shade, 

And yet the menace of the years 

Finds and shall find me unafraid. 

It matters not how strait the gate, 

How charged with punishments the scroll, 

I am the master of my fate, 

I am the captain of my soul. 

{William Ernest Henley}

The Sky

One day, I met a young girl stood by herself. She looked up at the sky as she traced her hand following the clouds above our heads. Her face was flat; I could see no emotion. But somehow, out of nowhere, I could feel as if she is that one cheerful being. Or maybe she was, I thought.

I kinda approached her, made my way next to her hesitantly. She didn't move a little. I sighed, doing the same thing as her, looking at the sky.

"The sky is always blue, isn't it?" I rambled.

"No."

"Okay..."

"It's pitch black."

"What?"

"Pitch black." She looked down, turning her head towards me, "The sky is pitch black. That's why I look at the sky every day."

"I don't get it?"

"I wish I could put all of my thoughts in a jar. I hate the nights where I feel so hollow inside; empty and out of place. Did, it made me happy," she sighed, heavily breathe, "but for some unknown reason, it scares me. That's what crossed my mind the very first second of whatever circumstances lies behind."

"Wow. I don't know. You're very much a talker..."

"Surprised?"

"A little."

"Good then. I rarely do that."

"I know... but why, me, all of sudden?"

"Do you think I never realized that you've stopped by looking at me probably wondering why this girl out of nowhere staring at the sky since forever?"

"I do. Sorry..." I kept fidgeting, feeling as unsure as I may seem, "..if I bother you."

"Not at all." I stared, not sure what she was talking about. "I've been waiting too."

"Waiting?" I asked as she nodded her head, smiling by her heart.

"Yeah.."

"I am all ears." I was trying to convince her.

"It's not the right time for you to know," she smiled, "see you."

I frowned and froze. The time suddenly stopped for a few seconds and I still couldn't get whatever she was saying. That long words she said in the beginning, it shocked me somehow. It was too much for my mind to process. Whatever she might be thinking; whatever intention she had when she said that to me, or perhaps nothing at all. It was good to know, anyway...

Disclaimer: this is a work of fiction.

Alasan kamu harus pakai Zenius.net sekarang juga! #ReviewZenius

"...an education isn't how much you've committed to memory, or even how much you know. It's about being able to differentiate between what you know and what you don't know."

Haloo! Selamat tahun 2017 semuanya!

Hehehe, sekali-sekali pakai bahasa Indonesia nggak papa yah, rasanya udah lama banget nggak nulis pakai bahasa Indonesia. Hmm, sebenernya alasannya bukan itu sih, tapi kali ini aku bakal ngenalin kalian semua sama "sesuatu" yang mengubah pandanganku tentang dunia, ilmu pengetahuan, psikologi, pendidikan, hidup, politik, dan lain lain. My major turning point in life selama ini adalah berkat *drumrolls*..... ZENIUS!! apaan banget ya gak jelas bgt :') Jujur aja deh tadi mau pake gue-lo gitu biar kerasa Zenius banget tapi rasanya agak kurang nyaman aja, maklum orang Jogja, ya walaupun kadang pake terms itu sama beberapa temen sih, tapi gini aja gapapa deh ya biar lebih enak hehehehe.

Apaan sih zenias zenius mulu dari tadi... emang Zenius apaan sih??

Aku mau cerita dulu deh, sebenernya aku ketemu Zenius udah sejak tiga tahun yang lalu, pertengahan kelas 10 gitu, dan seketika itu aku langsung jatuh cinta. Literally, die-hard in love dan head over heels sama Zenius!! Cie kaya apaan bgt y. Tiap hari kerjaannya mantengin website Zenius... dari pagi nontonin video-video Zenius tiba-tiba gak kerasa udah sore aja, yang gratis doang tapi, maklum gak modal. Waktu itu masih jadi regular member dan tiap kali lagi asik-asiknya nyimak penjelasan Bang Sabda, Bang Pras, dkk yang gaul dan seru abis tiba-tiba disuruh berenti gara-gara dikode suruh jadi premium member mulu. Kan kesel:( Tapi walaupun gitu, tetep aja dilanjutin cari video-video gratis yang lain... maklum bener-bener gak modal hahahaha. /plak

Berawal dari nonton video-video gratisan itu, akhirnya waktu kelas 11 aku tergoda buat jadi premium member. Caranya gampang banget! Bisa pesan online atau hubungi customer service lewat sms, pin bb, whatsapp, dan Line. Pembayarannya bisa kamu transfer lewat atm, Indomaret, dan Alfamart. Gampang kan? Untuk jadi premium member, kamu bisa milih untuk beli voucher elektrik 1 bulan - 12 bulan. Sebenernya, Zenius punya produk lagi namanya CD Multimedia Learning dan Xpedia 2.0 bentuknya CD jadi kamu nggak perlu kuota untuk mengakses videonya (produk-produk Zenius). Isinya kurang lebih hampir sama, tapi untuk Zenius Xpedia konten yang bisa kamu akses terbatas sesuai bidang yang kamu pilih sedangkan untuk Zenius.net kamu bisa akses semua konten. Detailnya tentang Xpedia, kalian bisa merujuk ke sini.

Video-video-video di Zenius itu lengkap banget deh. Kalian bisa akses semua konten dari SD kelas 1 sampai SMA kelas 3! Bahkan di setiap videonya juga ada latihan soal yang bisa kalian download beserta pembahasannya. Gak cuma materi yang lengkap banget, tapi di Zenius juga dilengkapi dengan arsip soal Ujian Nasional, SBMPTN, UM, sampai UM-Stovia pun mungkin ada! Lengkap banget gak sih? Terlebih dulu waktu kelas 10 dan 11 lumayan sering gak masuk sekolah karena bolak-balik ke lab UGM untuk ngurusin penelitian ecek-ecek anak sma. (My research experience)

Alhasil kalau dihitung dari kelas 10-11 nggak masuk sekolah bisa sampai 1-2 bulan dan ketinggalan banyak banget pelajaran dan ulangan. Giliran sekalinya masuk... langsung ulangan dan akhirnya remidial menumpuk gak karuan karena gak ngerti sama sekali, nilai-nilai jeblok, gak ngerti lagi mau ngapain dan harus mulai dari mana. (Hehe malah curhat) Maklum aja otak-ku agak lemot dan gak secepet teman-teman yang lain dalam mencerna perlajaran, akhirnya aku langsung beli yang setahun karena yakin banget bakalan kepake sampai kelas 12. Hehe.

“The best thing for being sad," replied Merlin, beginning to puff and blow, "is to learn something. That's the only thing that never fails. You may grow old and trembling in your anatomies, you may lie awake at night listening to the disorder of your veins, you may miss your only love, you may see the world about you devastated by evil lunatics, or know your honour trampled in the sewers of baser minds. There is only one thing for it then — to learn. Learn why the world wags and what wags it. That is the only thing which the mind can never exhaust, never alienate, never be tortured by, never fear or distrust, and never dream of regretting. Learning is the only thing for you. Look what a lot of things there are to learn.” 

― T.H. White, The Once and Future King

Sejak kenal Zenius aku mulai menyadari kalau belajar itu bisa dibawa seru dan nggak membosankan sama sekali. Serius deh... jujur aja aku orangnya agak skeptic, yang namanya belajar tuh ya di kelas apa bimbel/privat gitu, kalaupun online paling 5 menit kemudian udah lupa lagi. Dari dulu setiap ada advertising tentang online-course atau apa pasti cuma mikir, "they don't really educate their customers, do they?" "marketing strategy crap." dan sebagainya. Tapi Zenius enggak kaya gitu...gak sama sekali. Bahkan, I once sempat nyoba salah satu platform belajar online yang lain, itu lhoh yang sukanya dateng di sekolah-sekolah dan iklannya M*audy Ayunda sebut saja ****** ehehehe itulah pokoknya... tapi jadi ngantuk karena berasa belajar di kelas. "Yaelah kelas mulu gedeg juga." Bosen kali hidup rasanya di kelas mulu kaya gada tempat lain aja:') Anyway ******* users jangan butthurt ya, it is a matter of taste kok! Tapi di Zenius, belajar... tuh rasanya gak kaya belajar... (ya rasanya kaya belajar sih wkwk) tapi bener-bener enjoy dan nggak cuma menghafal, tapi kamu bener-bener didorong untuk paham konsep! 

Guys, education isn't how much you've commited to memory, or even how much you know. It's about being able to differentiate between what you know and what you don't know. Mungkin di satu titik kamu bakal merasa kamu sudah tahu, tapi semakin banyak kamu belajar, membaca, observasi, dan lain-lain kamu bakal semakin merasa kalau kamu nggak tahu apa-apa. Well, I don't know for sure but that's just how important I think education is.

"Education is not the learning of facts, but the training of the mind to think." -Albert Einstein

Esensi pendidikan yang makin lama makin hilang dari sistem pendidikan di Indonesia saat ini: rasa ingin tahu terhadap ilmu pengetahuan. Lack of curiosity. Iya benar kita sekolah, belajar dari pagi sampai sore, tapi tujuannya somehow udah bergeser jadi belajar untuk cari nilai aja. Jujur aja deh, mau bilang sesibuk apapun sebenernya kita masih selo sih, masih bisa main dan melakukan kegabutan di jam-jam kosong dan lain sebagainya. Serius deh padahal belajar itu seru banget asik parah!! Students these days study only for their grades that some people becoming ambitious, ended up cheating. Ya enggak semua sih. Gak bisa juga sepenuhnya menyalahkan satu pihak, karena dari lingkungan kita juga dituntut seperti itu. Though, we are blessed with brains to choose what to do sih;) Akhirnya dari situ makin lama generasi kita makin kehilangan integritas dan bisa memicu bigger problems in the future; corruption etc. Do you really want to see your country suffers because of our ignorance? 

"Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world" - Nelson Mandela

Gara-gara Zenius juga, sekarang aku kelas 12 sering banget ditanyain "Kamu bimbel dimana?" dan pertanyaan sejenis lainnya. Dan jawabanku selalu "Aku nggak bimbel. Zenius aja" cielah dan responnya macem-macem, dari "Zenius?" "Zenius apaan buset" "Kamu udah jenius gitu maksudnya?" Lah nilai aja do re mi fa sol-_- Sampe-sampe kadang di kelas berasa jadi spg Zenius tiap hari ditanyain Zenius mulu. Bang Glenn, ini gak ada hadiah khusus buat promosi gratis ya? /plak  Hm selain itu juga aku mager-an sih dan lebih suka belajar sendiri di rumah soalnya bisa belajar di kamar sambil joget-joget sambil nonton youtube dan makan atau sambil tiduran eh malah terus ketiduran. Lah ga belajar dong-_-

Dulu waktu kelas 9 sempat ikut bimbel sih, tapi biasalah kaya anak-anak pada umumnya, sering nggak masuk karena mager. Hehe. Belajar tuh moodnya ganti-ganti, kalo aku personally mood belajar biasanya baru muncul waktu malam hari atau midnight. Lagian enak banget kali di zaman yang udah serba canggih where humans rely on technology dan somehow glued to their phone 24/7, kenapa nggak dimanfaatin aja buat hal yang baik? Kaya salah satu quotes yang ada di homepage Zenius

"Social media is an investment of valuable time and resources. Surround yourself with something worthwhile." 

Rather than being dumb people who uses smartphones, why don't break the stereotype by yourself? Salah satunya dari memulai kebiasaan memanfaatkan internet untuk hal yang baik. Gara-gara ini juga, sekarang setiap mau melakukan sesuatu jadi mikir "Do I really want to invest my time on this?" atau ketika download aplikasi di hp mikir lagi, "Does it really worth it? Output apa yang bakal didapet dari ini melakukan hal ini dan ini?" 

Tapi, ikut bimbel juga gak salah kok!! Justru aku salut banget sama orang-orang yang semangat bimbel/privat (dan gak mager-an kaya aku :') wkwk), lagipula selagi ada waktu, tenaga, dan resources kenapa engga? Dijamin gak akan nyesel. OH! Anyway Zenius tuh ada bimbel-nya juga lho!! Di daerah Jakarta tapi gatau dimana yang pasti engga ada di Jogja. Mungkin kalo Zenius X ada di Jogja, aku bakal pertimbangin ikut bimbel juga sih hehehe. Apapun pilihan kalian dalam belajar semuanya pasti baik, pokoknya jangan sampe lupa sama esensi mencari ilmu pengetahuan deh. 

Hmm balik lagi ke Zenius nih setelah ngelantur panjang. Nah, di Zenius ini kalian selain bisa nonton video-video pembelajaran, kalian bisa baca artikel-artikel keren di blog Zenius.

Wah ada juga? 

Iya dong. Udah dibaca semua malah, HUAHAHAHA hardcore emang parah serem abis #loveisblind, update lagi dong!:( Berawal dari situ aku jadi tau konsep Deliberate Practice. Apaan tuh? Jadi Deliberate Practice adalah... ah ga seru kalo aku jelasin, mending kalian baca langsung artikel Deliberate Practice-nya Bang Sabda.. Yang pasti, I learn the hard way that talent is overrated dan sebenernya kita bisa melakukan apapun yang kita pengen lakukan through deliberate practice itu sendiri. Idih apaan sih makin bingung? Wkwk yang penting baca aja deh dijamin bakal memotivasi kalian semua! W a j i b. (Hmm, kalo gamau baca kalian bisa dengerin audio nya juga kok!) Tapi harus ya. Hahaha #maksa

huaha nemu nih

Aku mau cerita lagi nih, cerita mulu perasaan, jadi sejak SMA kebiasaan membacaku agak menurun gitu. Dari dulu sebenernya suka baca... dari SD udah sok-sokan baca bukunya Janice Vancleave yang Proyek-Proyek Ilmu Bumi (walapun gak selesai juga sih hehe), buku-buku ensiklopedia, novel detektif, novel classics, dan terutama yang berbau astronomi! Suka banget. I AM IN LOVE WITH ASTRONOMY FOR AGES. (I wrote a few articles related to astronomy before) Sebenernya ini juga kode pengen dikasih buku sih abisnya science and astronomy-related semua:P

Sejak SD sampai awal SMA selera buku-ku ya genre-nya ya antara itu (except teen-lit, though I read classic love stories too). Terus waktu itu iseng baca bukunya Merry Riana (eng-ver) terus mulai termotivasi lagi, Kak Merry rekomen bukunya Anthony Robbins yang Awaken The Giant Within. Akhirnya langsung beli dan suka banget! As in banget banget. Akhirnya mulai deh haus buku lagi.. cari rekomendasi di goodreads, book-bloggers, sampai akhirnya ketemu postnya Bang Glenn (buku part 1, part 2) dan Bang Sabda (referensi buku) ... akhirnya makin hyped setelah tau genre buku yang disukai mirip banget! Maaf ya nyama-nyamain:( Dari dulu yang gak pernah kepikiran tentang business & motivational books because I thought itu bukunya buat orang tua (pemikiran yang salah banget emang). Ehh malah sekarang... buku favoritku adalah 7 Habits of  Highly Effective People-nya Stephen Covey!!

Nggak nyesel dulu ngikutin saran rekomendasi buku dari tutor-tutor Zenius yang keren abis, kalau di toko buku pasti selalu sempet-sempetin buka references dari Zenius. Ambil ini, ambil itu, kembaliin ini, ambil ini, ambil lagi... pulang-pulang bisa bawa 3-4 buku. Gara-gara Zenius. #puttheblameonzenius #loveisblind2 Bahkan akhir-akhir ini lagi suka baca tentang wars dan politics. Genre apapun dibaca, tujuannya ya untuk broaden my horizon dan insights. Setelah itu jadi sadar, kalau buku-buku kaya gitu definitely worth to read dan life-changing! I see the world in a different way in a matter of perspective. Very much. Significant. 

Sejak aku baca artikel-artikel di Zenius, aku sadar bahwa di umur-umur kita saat ini dimana tenaga kita masih banyak, kita masih mampu untuk belajar dan bekerja, explore  as much as you can apapun itu entah leadership, ikut organisasi, social programmes, research, observe, learn new things, etc. I learn the hard way that I shall invest my youth with beneficial activities. Zenius juga mengubah konsep time management aku, dari yang awalnya time oriented... yang justru bikin aku ngerasa tertekan dan kewalahan menjadi task oriented dimana aku tetep bisa menyelesaikan tasks-tasks dan ngelakuin hal-hal lain yang aku suka.

Hasilnya apa? Di tahun 2016 lalu aku belajar beberapa bahasa asing baru: French, Japanese, and Korean all by myself. Bukan maksud sombong, jujur aja kalo ditanya skill seberapa masih sangat-sangat basic. Tapi selain belajar bahasa-bahasa itu, aku juga belajar their way of thinking. Temen-temen beberapa ada yang tanya "How did you learn all those languages?" "Kamu gak capek apa nambah-nambahin tugas aja?" I don't know... I just did. How? Because I am happy doing it. School may not determine our future, but I somehow believe that what you do in your spare time for good things could determine your future.

Buat temen-temenku, yang saat ini mungkin masih kelas 12 juga dan bentar lagi bakal ikut SNMPTN, SBMPTN, UN, UM, UTUL apapun itu, mau impian kalian di PTN A, B, C atau PTS, atau malah pengen study abroad. Just believe in yourself. Bahkan meskipun orang-orang menghina/mock and let you down, don't stop believe in yourself. You may not be the brightest student di kelas nor you have any achievements, but you surely have something within yourself yang orang lain enggak punya. Kalau bukan kamu yang percaya dan push yourself to the limits, siapa lagi?

“A star falls from the sky and into your hands. Then it seeps through your veins and swims inside your blood and becomes every part of you. And then you have to put it back into the sky. And it's the most painful thing you'll ever have to do and that you've ever done. But what's yours is yours. Whether it’s up in the sky or here in your hands. And one day, it'll fall from the sky and hit you in the head real hard and that time, you won't have to put it back in the sky again.” 

― C. JoyBell C.

Hmmm gitu deh sekilas cerita tentang Zenius. Sebenernya masih pengen cerita panjaaaaaaaaang banget tapi nanti kalian capek bacanya :( (iya kalo dibaca:((( ) wkwk. Gadeng, I am happy enough to share this with all of you guys. And I hope it helps, though thousand gratitudes and praises would never enough to express how happy I am being one of Zenius member. Ciao. To summarize, ini kelebihan dan kekurangan Zenius menurut opiniku...

Kelebihan: 
- "In depth concept mastery through insight AND addictive drills" Bener banget! Kita bener-bener dilatih untuk paham konsep dan bukan sekedar menghafal.
- Guru privat 24/7!! Gak nyaranin sks sih, tapi kalau kepepet dan sakaw fisika... boleh dicoba.
- The reason why learning is one of my hobby right now
- Lebih dari 46.000 video dan 2,7 modul ter-download!
- Affordable price yet really worth it.
- Jempol friendly! Bisa diakses lewat pc, tablet, smartphone, laptop, etc. (Mobile-designnya juga ringan banget)
- Mind Transforming, claimnya sih "More than just Ulangan / UN / SBMPTN.. postulates, evolution, war histories etc... you’ll love them like you never have before." No lies. You'll love it as much!!
- SUPER FUN!! Jujur aja  jokesnya kocak dan garing at the same time mana sukanya muncul di tengah-tengah video sampe bisa ngakak tengah malem hahaha...
-; dll. (dll ini pokoknya banyak banget deh:( )
Couldn't be any happier and grateful udah dipertemukan sama Zenius, positive positive positive:) Gak ngerti aku jadinya kaya apa kalo nggak pakai Zenius. Terimakasih! #terharu

Kekurangan:
Nothing. Well, beberapa video ada yang suaranya gemeresek-gemeresek gitu sih but it's not a big deal to me. #loveisblind3
Not being biased but I am supeeeeeer satisfied.

Rate:11/10 (hehe mesin rate-nya rusak/

Tapi... aku masih bingung nih harus beli produk yang mana... bantuin huhuhu:(

Daripada bingung, coba kalian baca lagi ulasannya Bang Glen nih: Kalo belajar pake Zenius, mending pake produk yang mana?


Catatan:
Saat ini masih kelas 12 jadi kalau ditanya impact langsung belajar dari Zenius untuk pengalaman masuk SBMPTN, UM, dsb belum ada (kaya pengalaman-pengalaman Zenius users lainnya), tapi semoga aja Zenius ngebantu banget untuk masuk SBMPTN nantinya. Mohon doanya ya!! Hehe ^^ Anyway, request buku science populernya yah klo berkesempatan:P